We Were Born Lovers.

Sometimes I feel weighed down from expectations. I feel like I have to fit this mold that the world has placed around me, but I just can't seem to keep from oozing out of it. The world is trying to contain me with all its strength, yet I keep fighting it. I feel as if I am being squeezed down, confined, drained. But, I push up, and up, and up. Never backing down. Slipping through the cracks, the flaws, of the mold. Until finally it bursts, and I am released. I am free.

What I'm saying here is open your eyes. Look at the possibilities. We could be so much more than this. And the pain? You could erase it. The worry? Tell it goodbye. Be a free heart, a free spirit. Open up to the world. Take off your mask. Live your life. Dance in the middle of a store when your favorite song comes on. Tell that certain someone you can't live without them. Run in the rain, only stopping to jump in puddles of mud. Whatever it is, just do it. Don't hesitate. Never look back.

Whenever you are older. When you are on your death bed, and you reflect on your life, what are you going to say? I know that I will have lived the life I always dreamed of if I can say, "I fought, & I won."

This world is beautiful. Embrace it. Love it. Live it.

To Say I Love You.

"Just because you think you found the right person for you, doesn’t always mean that they feel you are the right person for them. That’s the challenge and the risk of opening up to someone, allowing yourself to become comfortable, even fall in love. And then one can ask and question, “I’m here, but you’re not? Where did you go left & I went right?” You can’t dial down feelings and we can’t turn back time. We can hope, even pray, that these intense feelings, desires & passions for that person, will subside if denied. That the ache in the heart will go away, that it will be filled with some other feeling, other than the love & happiness it once possessed. And then there’s the fear. The fear that if you close that door, that you will never allow it be reopened, even for that ‘imperfect’ perfect person, shall they discover that you are the one later in time. So you say to yourself, “Ok, I know the circumstances, I know they will never change, no matter how sincere the words.” So either accept it & be happy now or decide to change it, which would mean changing yourself, how you act, what you feel, what your dreams are, starting over. Is that a risk or a reward? No one knows the true definition of love or can one name the many different forms of love. Each and every one of us, only knows what we feel, what we define love to be. And the beauty of that…we don’t have to explain it to anyone but the one we love. You risk everything sometimes to come out with nothing. And so I’m going to go out on a limb here and say…I’m madly in love with you."

~ Author Unknown

So, my advice to you this evening? Take a chance. Force yourself to take risks that could crush you, or rise you up the the highest level of happiness you can imagine. Love someone worth loving. Let yourself feel something new. If you are unhappy, then how could taking a risk possibly hurt you? You can only get better from here. And things are looking up. Nothing stays the same unless you let it.

Xoxo.

Inside an Untrustworthy Snow Globe.

I think that fashion is a form of self expression. I think that mascara is meant to run down your cheeks. I think that music is an escape from reality. I think that when it's raining the sky is crying for all the Earth.

I think that women are just as strong as men. I think that you should dream a little bigger. I think that reality is a center for those lacking imagination. I think that perfection is impossible because it's repulsive.

I think that you are beautiful. Yes, you. I think that there is nothing wrong with being gay, you go Glen Coco. I think that everyone deserves to smile. I think that thrift stores are better.

I think that skipping should replace running. I think that we all think too much. I think that rules are made for people who can't think outside the box. I think that everyone should dance in the rain.

I think that photography is art. I think that I might get bangs. I think that stereotypes are cruel. I think that I may just love you.

Xoxo.

Hollywood Seamstress, Interrupted.

My style direction for this year: A Hollywood Seamstress, Interrupted.

I'm the girl who who spends her morning sipping on coffee from a large reindeer mug while carefully applying eye makeup that she will lightly smear before walking out the door. I'm the girl that embraces her obnoxiously curly hair throwing it up into a messy ponytail, and then back down to reveal a curly jungle. I'm the girl that has a drawer specifically for tights that she wears with just about anything, ignoring the fact that 80% of them are inspired by Edie Sedgwick.
I'm also the girl that wears the same ring everyday, but who also pairs it with 2 or 3 more rings, making her fingers sparkle everywhere she goes. I'm the girl that applies lipstick by the hour. Anything from the reddest of reds, to pinks that compliment her skin. Biting her lip when she's nervous. Slowly peeling the lipstick onto the surface of her white teeth.
I'm the girl that braids manically not stopping for loose hairs or clumps falling out. The girl that licks her lips to taste the frosting flavored lip balm she puts on every morning before rushing off to school. I'm the girl that carries a huge black and white purse as her book bag stuffing it full of books on psychology and novels that reveal the secret to happiness. The girl that sits criss-cross-apple sauce in her desk, refusing to put her feet down.
The same girl blasts Regina Spektor and Passion Pit to put her in a better mood. I'm the girl that looks up to Marilyn Monroe, wondering how society would feel of her if she were alive today instead of back then. I'm the girl who dreams of having Clara Bow's hair style, loving women that have the courage to chop off their long locks. Waiting for the day to follow in their footsteps. I'm the girl that wishes she was born in a different time period, scared of what the world has become.
The girl that cuts her own jean shorts, and sews a few dresses of her own. I'm the girl that wears black almost everyday because bright colors would compete with her choice of lipstick. I'm the girl that walks the streets in sequin dresses, never looking back. The girl that pairs everything with long, dangling earrings. I'm the girl that stands in the rain smiling loving the feeling of the water cleansing her pale skin. I'm the girl who can't sit still and is constantly curling her toes in and out, just to relax herself. The girl that eats tofu in her vegetable stir fry, never dreaming of eating an animal.
I'm the girl who's eyes change colors every couple of hours from bright greens, to light blues, to everything in between. The girl that can't express how she feels through words, and has to explain everything through images, music, or past experiences. The girl who keeps a pocket sized book on feminism to whip out every time someone challenges her beliefs. The one that will occasionally dye a layer of hair electric blue because she gets bored of her dirty blonde locks.

I am a Hollywood Seamstress, Interrupted.

Be sure to check out Luinae and Maddie's posts on their style direction for this year as well.

All these images are found from Weheartit.com

Shopping List.

I am starting a shopping list of major items that I would like to purchase in the next year. So far it is only a small list of big things that I have been wanting for a long, long time now.

1. A designer watch. I have always adored Marc by Marc Jacob watches, and this lovely gal I know showed me hers the other day and it was simply divine. The ones that I have been eyeing are between $150-$225, so I will have to put aside a jar to save up in for this piece of jewelry.

2. Chanel No. 5. Who could name a more classic perfume for a women to wear? Coco Chanel is such an inspirational figure to me, and I would love to have the honor of owning something from Chanel, and Chanel No. 5 would be my number one choice, by far. This is $260/oz, so if I ever do purchase this then I will be getting a limited supply of it. (Right now I go and ask for samples that I take home and use 'for a french assignment').

3. A white lace, vintage dress that I discovered today when searching high and low for a dress similar to that of the dress worn in Factory Girl when Edie and Andy met for the very first time. I searched for this when I discovered that the theme of our Prom this year is 'Keep It Classy', and even though I do not expect to go to Prom, I decided that I should be prepared. Just in case. I found one almost exact, only to find that it had been sold, but my hopes were replinished when I ran into this other dress costing $158.

All of these items are a bit out of my price rang at this point, but I have decided to save up, and simply wait and see what happens.

In the mean time, I must be on the lookout of tights with interesting design details, high socks, and boots.

P.S. Imagine all 3 of my top items together, what a lovely sight that would be.

My Love.

My love, leave yourself behind

Beat inside me, leave you blind

My love, you have found peace

You were searching for release

You gave it all into the call

You took a chance and

You took the fall for us

You came thoughtfully

Loved me faithfully

You taught me honor

You did it for me

Tonight you will sleep for good

You will wait for me, my love

Now I am strong, you gave me all

You gave all you had

And now I am home

My love, leave yourself behind

Beat inside me, leave you blind

My love, look what you can do

I am mending, I'll be with you

You took my hand and added a plan

You gave me your heart

I asked you to dance with me

You loved honestly

Did what you could release

Ah, ooh

I know in peace you'll go

I hope relief is yours

Now I am strong, you gave me all

You gave all you had

And now I am home

My love, leave yourself behind

Beat inside me, I'll be with you

My love by Sia is one of the most amazing songs I have ever had the pleasure of listening to. It's been on repeat all week. Hope you enjoy. Xoxo.

All I Feel For You Is Love.

It scares me how easily everyone can move on so fast. How what once meant so much can be forgotten like it meant nothing.

Worth A Snapshot.

In honor of breast cancer awareness month my friend has put together several photoshoots and a facebook fanpage called Worth A Snapshot that you can find here. She asked me to be the model for one of her prevention photoshoots. Be sure to check out this page and learn more about how you can work to stay cancer free. Be aware of how precious your health and life is this month and share with other people.

What Society Told Me

It's taught to everyone, no matter where you come from or how much you refuse to admit it, but everyone is shown a way to be 'beautiful' that they are expected to live by and to follow. The ones who break it are the reasons that societies change. For the better. And for the worse. But, in the end, it doesn't matter what you look like, what you wear or who you spend your time with. None of these things will change the fact that you are a person underneath your mask and you can make a difference. If you let yourself. You are you.

I've always loved this image. It reminds me that no matter how much everyone thinks they know about the world, we really don't know. So, why would we spend our time targeting a group of people and hating them, shunning them, when we could accept them into our lives with open arms and an understanding. I recommend that everyone watch the speech that Lady Gaga gave in Portland just the other day about the Don't ask, Don't tell policy. You can find it here.

John Lennon. We are all familiar with this man. He did our world a great deed. He's a legend that has stayed with us for years and years. This quote is perfect for this post because it is saying that we should not give society the power to make us into whom it wants us to be. We should not give into what other people want us to be. We need to be accepting of ourselves and the people around us.
Imagine all the people living life in peace.

JJ from a British show called Skins has a mental issue called Asperger Syndrome. This causes him to struggle with social interactions. He was never told that he had this problem, he found out by seeing papers spread out that his mother had been reading about the disorder and about his diagnosis. JJ wants to be 'normal' just as anyone else does. He wants to be accepted and loved, but he feels that with his condition he can't be this way. Everyone can feel normal, loved and accepted, but it's up to you to accept them and to love them. To make that difference in someones life.

Everyone is good enough. Everyone.

What are we waiting for? We all have voices. Why not make them heard? The world is waiting on you to make a difference. No voice will go unheard if you make it heard. Start talking. Star loving. Start doing. Start being.