Pumping Veins. Bursting Vessels.

First day of February. First snow day of the month. First time to pick up this book. First bad snow storm in 20 years. First time to hear this song. First time to miss you this much more. First realization that I could be wrong. First chance to start over.

This month I'm going to be wearing more sequins. Attending more Starbucks gatherings. Focusing even more on my school and art work. Reading more books that leave a lasting impression. Singing louder to my favorite songs. Loving more people than ever before. Trying on more dresses. Focusing on the positive.

This month I'm going to be relying less on jeans. Eating less junk food. Avoiding any and all silly arguments. Spending less time being unproductive. Trusting myself to be less of a procrastinator. Making less excuses. Relying on less people to do what I should be doing myself.

This is going to be my month.
Xoxox.

A New Beginning.

This year has been a roller coaster. I have had some of my best and some of my worst moments. I have accomplished so much in only 365 days. Starbucks workers now know me by name and can predict my order. My friends can sense my mood. I have moved forward, and then fallen right back into the routine. I have bettered myself as a student, spending hours every evening reading and studying. I have learned to let loose and dance like no ones watching. I have explored New York City. I have pushed people I love away.


I saw the midnight premiere of Harry Potter. And I released a magazine with Maddie. I opened up this blog. I have begun researching psychology and sociology. I lettered in Varsity Swim. I've bought a pocket-sized book called Women Who Dared.

2011 will undoubtedly be an essential year for my future. In less than a year I must make the decision of what college I wish to attend. Which will be one of the biggest decisions that I have had to make in my life so far. This next year is when things start to count. My ACT scores, my GPA and class rank, my passionate love for fashion and art.

There's no looking back from this point on.

"One can never consent to creep when one feels an impulse to soar." -Helen Keller.

Happy New Year to all!! Xoxox.

Tis The Season.

Happy Holidays everyone!

Today is my 16th Christmas, and it is meeting up to everything I could have imagined. This morning I woke up to find my little brother resting on the couch saying that he has been staring at the presents with wide eyes since 3 AM. The rest of us waited until 8 AM to drag ourselves out of bed to join him.

Every year we tear down the stockings first. I dug through mine to find layers of chocolates and a few knit hats tucked up in between, along with an ornament of the Eiffel Tower hidden at the toes of the oversized sock.

Next we turn on Christmas music and gather around in the living room. My dad turns to each of us with a golden box saying that Santa must have snuck through the chimney the following evening and left them waiting for us until the morning. In that box I found Estee Lauder makeup in a shiny golden case, with a travel-sized makeup bag that has 4 different kinds of makeup brushes.

Along with this I found books, a fuzzy scarf, a cheetah print dress, gloves, and beautiful perfume bottles for me to sneak some Bath & Body Works scents into, all while pretending to own the finest vintage perfumes.

Tonight I am attending a family Christmas party at my Grandma's place. This is my first year to spend Christmas with her, and I can not wait to do so!

How is everyone spending their holidays this season?

Carols.

Break is almost here. Only 7 tests away from a much needed time of relaxation. And I decided to make some goals of things to accomplish over break.

1. Read. Complete all of the books I checked out for school research, as well as personal books I have not yet had time for.

2. Re-watch every Christmas episode of Friends, every Star Wars episode, and every Harry Potter movie.

3. Buy tons of fuzzy sweaters. TONS. I plan on thrifting a lot over break and I need to be sure to stock up on sweaters for layering. No one likes being cold.

4. Become a Gold Member at Starbucks. I have 13 out of the 30 points needed, so I would have to be drinking a lot of coffee, but I feel like it's worth it.

5. Paint more. I rarely paint, and next semester in school I start my painting class. So, I figured it never hurts to get a head start.

6. Bake cookies. It's a tradition, need I say more.

7. Clean out my room. It's becoming a disaster in here and I really need to work on getting that under control one of these days..but I sort of like it like this.

8. Solve the Rubix Cube. I've tried before and failed, but I really would be able to say that I can complete it.

9. Make Christmas themed music videos with my friends.

10. Be happy and carefree. Tis the season to be jolly, after all.

Xoxox.