We Were Born Lovers.

Sometimes I feel weighed down from expectations. I feel like I have to fit this mold that the world has placed around me, but I just can't seem to keep from oozing out of it. The world is trying to contain me with all its strength, yet I keep fighting it. I feel as if I am being squeezed down, confined, drained. But, I push up, and up, and up. Never backing down. Slipping through the cracks, the flaws, of the mold. Until finally it bursts, and I am released. I am free.

What I'm saying here is open your eyes. Look at the possibilities. We could be so much more than this. And the pain? You could erase it. The worry? Tell it goodbye. Be a free heart, a free spirit. Open up to the world. Take off your mask. Live your life. Dance in the middle of a store when your favorite song comes on. Tell that certain someone you can't live without them. Run in the rain, only stopping to jump in puddles of mud. Whatever it is, just do it. Don't hesitate. Never look back.

Whenever you are older. When you are on your death bed, and you reflect on your life, what are you going to say? I know that I will have lived the life I always dreamed of if I can say, "I fought, & I won."

This world is beautiful. Embrace it. Love it. Live it.

Everyone is Everyone.

I have been overloaded since I got back to school. I just finished my 2181 word essay on different age groups and their struggles with depression. Pheww! I feel like I wrote a novel. I am so far behind on reading all of your blogs, and I am terribly sorry. Tomorrow is Friday, so I will begin to have time to go through each and every post!

Fact Conflicting With Reality.

I've never shared with you all that my blog was named after the song Sleepyhead by Passion Pit, so if you haven't heard it then you must listen to it, I guarantee you that you will feel the need to get up and dance.

ALSO, I am so flattered that Alkyoni from Electronic Nightsky has picked me for two different awards: the Versatile Blogger and the Stylish Blogger Award, along with 5 other bloggers. How exciting! My first blogging award!!!


Today is said to be the most depressing day of the year, but I would say that today has been a fairly good day, but don't hold it to me, I haven't even started my homework yet.. but, many psychologist have determined this because this is the time of failed resolutions, after holiday debt, and icky weather. There is even a formula that experts have created.

The model is: [W + (D-d)] x TQ
M x NA

The equation is broken down into seven variables: (W) weather, (D) debt, (d) monthly salary, (T) time since Christmas, (Q) time since failed quit attempt, (M) low motivational levels and (NA) the need to take action.

But, I am here to be smarter than all of these professionals and say that today is not the most depressing day. I won't let it be. No doctor can tell me how I am going to feel and when I'm going to feel it, and you shouldn't let them tell you this either. If however you are feeling down, then get up and change your attitude! Personally, hearing that today is going to be depressing inspired me to do everything in my power to prove everyone wrong, and you should want to too! Because it's so much fun.

Now, everyone go out there and prove these doctors wrong and have the best day of your life. I know that's what I'm going to do!

Today's Wellness Status.

I haven't said much about how my Happiness Project is going so far. Well, I'll catch you up on January: Boost Energy.

Well, I haven't quite finished cleaning out my closet. I have 2 stacks of clothing that I am going to donate, and then I have a bag full of clothes that I am going to throw away. Once I finish my closet I am going to battle all of the clutter in my room. Eeeek! I do not mean organizing every little thing, but rather throwing away all of the 'crap'. For example: I can not get to my desk because surrounding it is shopping bags. I have a wonderful collection of Victoria Secret, Charming Charlies, Sephora, etc. bags.

That being said, I have been doing other things to energize my life. Me and my friend went to the gym the other day, and decided to go 3 times a week (if the weather allows us to). On the other days I do all that I can in my house to keep my blood flowing. And lately I have been replacing barbecue chips with fresh salads & sodas with ice water. Though I do of course allow myself to eat other things in moderation.

One of the things not on my list of things to do for this project is my daily search for inspiration. Now, this might sound crazy when my goal is to boost my energy, but in reality, it really does help my energy level. There is no way that I would ever feel the need to go out and do something if I wasn't inspired to do so. And where does my daily inspiration come from? All of your blogs of course! So, thank you all for helping me with my happiness project!

Now here is some inspiration that I will share with you today:

Get To Know Me, Get To Know You.

A blog should be a place of trust. I place to share ones life with complete and utter strangers, and not feel guilty about it because we are all a family. So, I feel as if formal introductions are in order.

I am Courtney & I live in the Midwestern area of the United States. I drink way too much coffee for my own good, and never eat meat. I enjoy going to thrift stores and antique malls. I'm the kind of girl who spends her high school career wearing pretty dresses and having tea parties, not identifying with the majority of her classmates.

One day I want to move to a city, and spend the majority of my 20's and 30's living life, not rushing into a steady routine. I want to go into fashion in one way or another, probably working for a fashion magazine. Even though me and my friend Maddie have already created our very own feminist fashion magazine called MissFits.

There will never be a time you will catch me without lipstick in my purse, even while wandering around snow-filled yards in blue wigs and a Betsey Johnson jacket, followed by Maddie shooting pictures all the way.

Some of the most interesting things to me are sociology and psychology & I will always have a book dealing with one or the other sitting by my bed, a good read before rolling back and forth all night, trying to deal with my insomnia.

My room is far too messy to freely walk around in, and drives my family insane (sorry mom.), but it serves as a place of relaxation in my mind. Escaping from the world of perfection we all seek in ourselves.

I am currently involved in reading The Happiness Project, trying to find a way to reach that high of a level of bliss.

Xoxo.

To Say I Love You.

"Just because you think you found the right person for you, doesn’t always mean that they feel you are the right person for them. That’s the challenge and the risk of opening up to someone, allowing yourself to become comfortable, even fall in love. And then one can ask and question, “I’m here, but you’re not? Where did you go left & I went right?” You can’t dial down feelings and we can’t turn back time. We can hope, even pray, that these intense feelings, desires & passions for that person, will subside if denied. That the ache in the heart will go away, that it will be filled with some other feeling, other than the love & happiness it once possessed. And then there’s the fear. The fear that if you close that door, that you will never allow it be reopened, even for that ‘imperfect’ perfect person, shall they discover that you are the one later in time. So you say to yourself, “Ok, I know the circumstances, I know they will never change, no matter how sincere the words.” So either accept it & be happy now or decide to change it, which would mean changing yourself, how you act, what you feel, what your dreams are, starting over. Is that a risk or a reward? No one knows the true definition of love or can one name the many different forms of love. Each and every one of us, only knows what we feel, what we define love to be. And the beauty of that…we don’t have to explain it to anyone but the one we love. You risk everything sometimes to come out with nothing. And so I’m going to go out on a limb here and say…I’m madly in love with you."

~ Author Unknown

So, my advice to you this evening? Take a chance. Force yourself to take risks that could crush you, or rise you up the the highest level of happiness you can imagine. Love someone worth loving. Let yourself feel something new. If you are unhappy, then how could taking a risk possibly hurt you? You can only get better from here. And things are looking up. Nothing stays the same unless you let it.

Xoxo.

Inside an Untrustworthy Snow Globe.

I think that fashion is a form of self expression. I think that mascara is meant to run down your cheeks. I think that music is an escape from reality. I think that when it's raining the sky is crying for all the Earth.

I think that women are just as strong as men. I think that you should dream a little bigger. I think that reality is a center for those lacking imagination. I think that perfection is impossible because it's repulsive.

I think that you are beautiful. Yes, you. I think that there is nothing wrong with being gay, you go Glen Coco. I think that everyone deserves to smile. I think that thrift stores are better.

I think that skipping should replace running. I think that we all think too much. I think that rules are made for people who can't think outside the box. I think that everyone should dance in the rain.

I think that photography is art. I think that I might get bangs. I think that stereotypes are cruel. I think that I may just love you.

Xoxo.